a look on friendship

how did we let our friendship get on the top shelf? you know, something to admire from afar but hardly in use? It's gona be an antique one day. With the 'good ol' days' and good times but not funcationable because of more advanced and progressive things...

one of my favorite interviews

http://www.adbusters.org/magazine/88/socialism-versus-capitalism.html

I

-actually like my job/coworkers/boss
-like playing tennis every Friday night
-really like waking up early on Saturdays to volunteer for UTSA VOICES
-enjoy having company at night
-am appreciative of my Analysis and Digital Production class (they're fun!)
-love my parents
-like not eating land animals these past 5 months
-like my room

It's been going good.

story for audition

Today there is an audition for the Arabian Nights at the Vexler Theatre where Karl works. The coolest thing about the audition is that I only have to tell a story about something in my life. Makes sense because the Arabian Nights was passed down through the generations orally.

here it goes:

At the age of 5 when my vocabulary and the awareness of my surroundings grew, I noticed that my older brother did not look like me, or the rest of the family. My mum was fair and my dad was dark, but I felt like I looked like my dad a lot. When my dad was watching TV one day I bluntly asked, "Dad, is Rodney adopted?" He looked at me for a bit with no expression, and simply stated "Yea." "Oh ok", I said thinking that was all. Then he went, "Oh, and so are you." Freeze. What?! I thought about it for a second and simply dismissed it. Through out most of my youth I kept it a secret because a very small percentage of me found it to be kind of shameful. But eventually I told anyone who asked because it wasn't a big deal. When I was 18, I met my biological mom for the first time as well as some cousins and my aunt and grandma. It was pretty special... :)

it'll be something along the lines of that.

my favorite picture of the summer...

It's blurry but I don't give a shit because I know what I felt that day :)

why did I leave home?

It's been a year since I came to this city and I'm still the same. Sure I've had some fantastic experiences but shit I still set myself up in the same fucking emotional corner, I still make the same mistakes and I still have the same stupid habits.

A new location didn't work for me but I still need to finish school and I have one more year of that.

I'm not gonna have anymore expectations...

Dear Best Friend,

We will remain together through anything, forever.
Thank you putito.


Love,
Me


PS. Please buy me this for my birthday
*clicksies*

lol

ohhh what was I thinking?

I

finally mopped the floor and now my scummy apartment is clean :)

Tomorrow at the AT&T Center

I get to be part of this :)

Star Wars: A music journey
music by John Williams

Duel of the Fates:



and

Battle of the heroes:




whoop!

12 nights

It's how many days I haven't slept alone.
Now back to responsibilities and a better sense of time.

it's been fun:
-the lake and movie like moments of fun
-a shiny new gift
-my car is finally clean like the day my parents bought it 4 years ago!!!!!!!
-getting to shoot a gun after such a long time of wanting too
-lots and lots of tennis and brown skin
-homemade Chinese cooking
-finally going to the bar with Karl and him treating me to apricot beer
-getting a feel of what marriage is like...


Bring it on summer school!

ay ay ay

out of the blue this seem to came
actually it flew in from the east

I was told of this through a treat
but I tore it up quickly to deny

now it's kind of a tangle this thing
or are we mutually agreed about this fling?

I underestimated ya
and now tomorrow is blank

well I'll see
que sera, sera...

I won the bet

:)


and if the feeling of today could have a tune it would def be this ayyyy

:)

new favorite song

can't stop listening to it :D ! ♥

I am

officially done with this semester!

:(

69.2

falling

*yesterday*

Me: You know, it's times like these that I want to bring back Jesus into my life.

Shawn: Why?

Me: Cos when I feel shitty like this and overwhelmed with stuff it's nice to fall back on something.

Vero: You can fall on me!


awwww <3

let's

forget everything teachers taught us in school and become dumb so the government will support all the children we so stupidly conceive brat after brat with not enough breast to go around so we'll feed them fast food and keep the gluttony going on with fat bellies in my home and fat pockets in the those who receive support from the same place that supports the never ending cycle of stupidity in the name of capitalism.





It's 2:21 am and I'm shleepy...

recap

So these past two weeks have been interesting,

last weekend has a spur of the moment kind of deal when Vero got a call from Ricardo and told us that Juilieta Venegas was playing at Club Rio.... GRATIS ! ! So we had to go duhhh! And if that name doesn't ring a bell then maybe this will stir the memory



yah, she's pretty magnificent. SO we get dolled up and were then going to head to Shawn's place then oh wait... Ricardo calls and is like "ohhh well you see the concert is for free but the tickets that can be printed from the net are already gone. *ayyyyeeee* So we get at a crossroads and wonder if it's worth getting over there and trying to get in by chance. We did go. We get there at 7:45 and I'm like "oh damn I thought there would be more people because this starts at 8". NO. The doors open at 9. *ughghghhgh* We got there and wait and then this huge line forms behind us so it's great how fate works. Also it had been raining all day and then it stops for that night! Awesome! And we're waiting then we start talking to this sweet old couple behind us (Michael and Analucia) and they say how they don't have tickets either and how Michael has seen QUEEN live before *drool* and how he'd start a riot if they don't let us in. Then the people in front of us gives him an extra copy of their ticket and he's like "I'm gonna make a copy for you two". Yah! Another point from fate. Then Ricardo comes and he and Vero go and make a copy. WE think we are good to go now, then the girls working the doors say we have to be on the list! Shit, so when the line starts moving I get nervous cos I dunno if I could play it off cooly. But Ricardo does a good job. Then behind me I hear the bouncer saying no sorry we can't take this ID. He was talking about Vero's fake ID and then Analucia is like "I'm these girls mom, I'll look after them etc....". And I'm between this conflict, then the girl in front is like "Let me get my manager". He comes out looks at Vero and I and is like "Nah it's cool let them in". :) Free drinks, free shirt, free show. Good times.




After wards Vero treats me to a fish sandwich and I spend the night with Ben and get some stuff cleared up ;)

I had so many fucking exams this past week and apps to do! Ugh! I also learned a lot of gossip of this one guy who I had a thing for and man did it make him so unattractive :/


Note to self: Never wash hands with bleach again!

I'm losing

I'm losing a lot of who's what, when or why of everything, anything, the somebody's even a lot of the nobody's...

first high-soc dinner experience

recently, Vero and I went downtown to experience a nice dinner setting with the bells and whistles. We did it to celebrate our birthdays and it was even better cos she paid :) Previously we went to the Majestic theatre to see the SA Symphony and Master Singers perform. We saw Camille Saint-Saëns Symphony No. 3 Op. 78 also known as "The Organ Symphony". It was so powerful and I literally felt like I was floating as the orchestra went through its movements and the theatre is just so beautiful! Bravi! After we went to the restaurant next door and had a romantic candle light dinner with a three course meal. jajaja it was a nice experience and after wards we did a transition to a more trashy setting when Lance Jeremy and Sims picked us up to accompany us for the rest of the night.

in my hair

lies many secrets... but mostly tangles. Metaphorically and literally! My hair in a sense represents all my thoughts; twisted, random, unstructured, chaotic at times too.

it's fun

to have spontaneous girl talk with one of the boys in hushed voices for 2 hours :)

today...

I had the best voice lesson ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Dr. Olson is amazing ♥ And I think she might be a nun?! ahahahah

oh wassup!

taking quizzes online

and I think I've drunken too much green tea cos I'm sooooo jittery and my heart is racing!

The library is so rowdy right now cos people are not using their 6 inch voices and cells are going off everywhere!

Spring Break - edit*

original post:
It wasn't stimulating enough to comment about.


Ready for some work already.

edit:
ok ok, Spring Break wasn't the epic episode I was hoping for but given the fact that I didn't plan it was a great factor of why it wasn't great. There were other personal reasons from my company, but I'll skip that.

During Spring Break in Austin is when the music part of SXSW is happening. Meaning there's lots of free shows one can go to especially if one is over 21. My friends and I only got a little taste of it when we went in to some bar on 6th street in which this little band was finishing their set. They were really good. We (myself, Israel and Vero) walked around and saw a lot. This was Thursday, the only day we invested for SXSW. but wait, I got sick. motherfucked. I just had to get my hxdcore period pains that I get only once in a long while. DAMN. It was severe with the shakes and hot flashes. So we had to take the bus back to Riverside and miss the Auditorium Shores fest Jeremy had mentioned. ugh! I didn't ask him to teach me tango for nothin'! I wanted to get down!

The day preceding, the whole lot including Ben, went to the Blanton Museum mainly for Vero's homework assignment. We all got there awkwardly but myself the most cos I had to share a bike with Jeremy. The place was nice and I got to see some nice Byzantine and Baroque pieces (both of which give me chillz). After that we ditched Jeremy cos there were only 4 bikes and 5 kids. I got to experience the thrill of riding in the city on the streets with the cars (and it was a good workout up those hillz man!) Vero and I had YUMMY salmon noodle bowls from Zen and Amy's icecream Ben owed us. pretty divine. We rode back and were so tired that we didn't do anything that night but learn tango.

So basically Austin was way too chill, but whatevs. I spent time with that extended family and I loved and hated it :)

I spent the weekend in the valley and after bitchin' all day about spending 11 hours at the livestock show wiff the goats, trying to get converted and eating some delish toasty nuts it was all worth it getting to see my lil sis rassle a piggie to the the floor and winning $125 which contributes to an animal she can show for next year! OMG the drama! So cute! More goats! Hopefully she gets a buckle next time!

Now it's over and done and I'm ready for some school... but not work :/ Need a new job!


Line up for NATS yo!





and Alleluia by Ned Rorem which can't be found anywhere!

materialism?

Hearing the expression "Worth dying for" or "To die for" of certain objects such as one's favorite food or beautiful pair of shoes gets me wondering much weight material objects have over humans. How much does your life mean to you every time you say something like that? I know it's an exagerrated expression but must we give the impression of dimishing the value of our souls for the sake of such things?

pertaining to nothing in particular

try your hardest you can't get through
my exterior I made a long time ago,
it's made of rose thorns, sulfur & hazardous things no human can stand
so turn around, give up don't come back
forget my face and that you ever spoke to me before
some good things are not meant to last
this includes me and you...

wow

fuckk yeah!

Deadline postmarked : March 31, 2010!!


https://www.southtexasstars.org/

visits from the past...

Oh damn, so a couple of days ago one of my parents former foster children from 10 years ago adds and messages me on MySpace. I haven't talked to him since he left that time, and have only recently heard of what all them (his sisters including himself) been up to. It hasn't been a pretty story. Let me just say the most normal one (who is a year older than myself) has 4 kids and is in the process of divorcing the baby's' daddy. I pray for these people and their well being and hopefully they see the light after all the darkness they've been forced to see...

classic

Yesterday I had my first of eight free classical guitar lessons from Jake. I learned about posture and placement and there was a lot more to it than I would have thought from legs positions, back, shoulders, 3 point guitar body places, the curvature of the hands and finger to the bump on the wrist to the thumb, plus more. Hopefully volunteering myself to this pedagogy class will reap some benefits for me!

hahaha, and funny how one person can link you to all this other drama.

no mo

influenced from my surroundings

let it go,

don't want to let it show

what you mean to me

... no I don't


can't stand your closed mind

can't stand your white lies

but most of all

can't stand my long for youuu


the constant need of you and me
takes me back to that place I don't want to gooo

no I don't wanna go


people come

and people go

why does is it have to be so?


change my mind

with the change of time

why can't you change with it too?


the constant need of you and me
takes me back to that place I don't want to gooo

no I don't wanna go




(yes contradicting, but rationality sometimes seems to disappear in these sort of situations :P)

jajajajaja,

Today I bought about 3 meal/proteins to replace my meal for dinner and for my meals tomorrow. I did so because this weekend and then this trip I am currently on has been horrible for my diet!!! Not saying that I am on a "diet" but I do try to eat healthy! This weekend I ate horribly since I treat my myself after a long week and because I workout everyday :) I had Pan Pizza from Pizza Hut! So good! But it makes my stomach hurt and makes me gassy. I also had fried cheese sticks and french fries :/ Not so good for my belly. And now I'm on a trip and it's been nothing but fast food stops. Yesterday I bought a Java Chip Frap from Starbucks, chips and salsa from a Mexican restaurant, and some salad from Chic-fil-a. Today I have a muffin, some waffle, 3 crunchy tacos from Jack in the Box and that's when I decided to buy those bars to finish the trip with and stop all this junk. So for dinner I had a strawberry Special K protein meal bar and I thought that was gonna be it. Well after Jeff and I had fashion orgasms in Versace, Ralph Lauren and Louis Vuitton we parted ways and I joined some folks at the Kona Grill. They all had happy hour specials which consisted of BBQ chicken pizza, calamari, sake bombs and avocado egg rolls hahahaha and they offered me a bit of all of it! ugh! I can't resist free food!!!! ahem: 2 slices of pizza, some calamari, a shot of sake and half of one of those rolls! oh oh to top it off, when we all went back to the bus Jeff had shared his massive Chili's burger plus fries with me that he had got to go -___- and then there were cake balls going around!?! (which I didn't eat blugh)

lol anyways...so much for that prospective healthy end to my day jaja

damn,

I am so glad I don't have a computer readily available to me at home!


IMAGINE?!?!??!?!?!

* now I'm so inclined NOT to get one because of my resistance is still not strong enough!

I am so tired

I feel like giving up, I feel like throwing the towel in and every other phrase used for this feeling!
It never feels like I can be content...

say whaaaa??

Would you have sex with a robot?

Dear Procrastination,

you need to please leave me the fuck alone. Don't you get it? I don't like you. Don't you understand GET AWAY??!?!? How hysterical must I get before you realize you're not wanted? I usually don't judge, but your reputation is too awful for me to be associated wiff. I hope you get the picture now.

insincerely,

Lora.


ps. tell your cousin Lazy to keep his distance too...

^___^

*clicksies*

~~~~

hooray for birthday wishes! <3 <3 <3

boo for sickness and medicine :(


*_____________*

thank you,

for coming over and giving me positive energy
for treating me to soda, pancakes and fried cheese sticks!
for making me feel better!

you're the nicest betch I know ! :D <3

Goals;

-Get all A's in my classes (7 classes in total)
-Try out for RENT and be involved in it in some aspect
-Compete for NATS
-Develop fantastic sleep schedule
-Be more money efficient
-Read more, internet network less
-actually learn in my classes
-pass the theory exam in February
-visualize, initiate, develop and execute talent show by MOB

Oh, Mr. Desperate

there is nothing wrong with constant need of affection.

And should people be given third chances? There is that cliche that third time is the charm but what good have cliches done to me but prove me wrong?

awww!

My poppa just showed me this! ^^

Christy, my lil sis, has been showing goats for 2 years now and is really getting the knack for it.

Here she is with her current goat Pancho :)

*clicksies*

cuties! <3