pertaining to nothing in particular

try your hardest you can't get through
my exterior I made a long time ago,
it's made of rose thorns, sulfur & hazardous things no human can stand
so turn around, give up don't come back
forget my face and that you ever spoke to me before
some good things are not meant to last
this includes me and you...

wow

fuckk yeah!

Deadline postmarked : March 31, 2010!!


https://www.southtexasstars.org/

visits from the past...

Oh damn, so a couple of days ago one of my parents former foster children from 10 years ago adds and messages me on MySpace. I haven't talked to him since he left that time, and have only recently heard of what all them (his sisters including himself) been up to. It hasn't been a pretty story. Let me just say the most normal one (who is a year older than myself) has 4 kids and is in the process of divorcing the baby's' daddy. I pray for these people and their well being and hopefully they see the light after all the darkness they've been forced to see...

classic

Yesterday I had my first of eight free classical guitar lessons from Jake. I learned about posture and placement and there was a lot more to it than I would have thought from legs positions, back, shoulders, 3 point guitar body places, the curvature of the hands and finger to the bump on the wrist to the thumb, plus more. Hopefully volunteering myself to this pedagogy class will reap some benefits for me!

hahaha, and funny how one person can link you to all this other drama.

no mo

influenced from my surroundings

let it go,

don't want to let it show

what you mean to me

... no I don't


can't stand your closed mind

can't stand your white lies

but most of all

can't stand my long for youuu


the constant need of you and me
takes me back to that place I don't want to gooo

no I don't wanna go


people come

and people go

why does is it have to be so?


change my mind

with the change of time

why can't you change with it too?


the constant need of you and me
takes me back to that place I don't want to gooo

no I don't wanna go




(yes contradicting, but rationality sometimes seems to disappear in these sort of situations :P)

jajajajaja,

Today I bought about 3 meal/proteins to replace my meal for dinner and for my meals tomorrow. I did so because this weekend and then this trip I am currently on has been horrible for my diet!!! Not saying that I am on a "diet" but I do try to eat healthy! This weekend I ate horribly since I treat my myself after a long week and because I workout everyday :) I had Pan Pizza from Pizza Hut! So good! But it makes my stomach hurt and makes me gassy. I also had fried cheese sticks and french fries :/ Not so good for my belly. And now I'm on a trip and it's been nothing but fast food stops. Yesterday I bought a Java Chip Frap from Starbucks, chips and salsa from a Mexican restaurant, and some salad from Chic-fil-a. Today I have a muffin, some waffle, 3 crunchy tacos from Jack in the Box and that's when I decided to buy those bars to finish the trip with and stop all this junk. So for dinner I had a strawberry Special K protein meal bar and I thought that was gonna be it. Well after Jeff and I had fashion orgasms in Versace, Ralph Lauren and Louis Vuitton we parted ways and I joined some folks at the Kona Grill. They all had happy hour specials which consisted of BBQ chicken pizza, calamari, sake bombs and avocado egg rolls hahahaha and they offered me a bit of all of it! ugh! I can't resist free food!!!! ahem: 2 slices of pizza, some calamari, a shot of sake and half of one of those rolls! oh oh to top it off, when we all went back to the bus Jeff had shared his massive Chili's burger plus fries with me that he had got to go -___- and then there were cake balls going around!?! (which I didn't eat blugh)

lol anyways...so much for that prospective healthy end to my day jaja