I just need to do it,

without the consent.

about me

it's a Saturday night and I did have options to go out and be social but decided not to. The dumb thing is, I still have that same feeling the one I get if I didn't have any plans or anyone to hang with.

it could be that I use people and people use me. do we all? Sometimes I can't tell the difference if you hang with people to fill time or to spend time. If you make relationships with people to use them for their friendship or to have their friendship. Thinking like this confirms that I might have to do some slight tweaking within...

I believe all these cases exist. Now that I realize it, I dunno how to distinguish them. Why do I have to change constantly? People have come in and out of my life. Is it my fault? Why couldn't they just accumulate and still be my friends? Now I feel as if I am going to lose my best friend. But it is because I have changed. I also can't take his current state of affairs because it's too much to handle. sorry...

Being more than human would be wonderful right now.

I always have these talks for myself. I just need to keep learning or not focus on people. How many times have I told myself that?

People always focus on the outer self for new years resolutions, but I'm not. I have always focused on physical attributes. It is time to truly do a makeover underneath the skin and into the psyche.

for the time being

because it feels necessary, because it feels right.

But for the mean time, enjoy this :)

losing your mind for the sake of your heart

^^

everything is in relief now :)
Grades are up and I'm content with what I received.
Now it's time to disconnect, reflect and rejuvenate!

my family is in the living room right now and it's a lot of nonsense XD


awwww holidays how I embrace thee...

yikes

I got my ass kicked in badminton yesterday and enjoyed it :)
Though I had some really crappy technique because I'm pretty sure I popped a blood vessel on my arm hahahaha

ps. too much soreness to handle! I think I'm def gonna take up that massage deal sometime this week :)

why?!

Are competition fees so exspensive?!

YOUNG TEXAS ARTIST APPLICATION FEES

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edit*

according to Dr. Olson and Karl I found out this competition is a rip-off for charging so much and that someone is pocketing a lot of money that is not supposed to be going to them... ha!